Posted by பிரேமலதா மேல் மே 17, 2007
Wannabe Mom writes letters to her unborn baby and shares her moments with us.
Start from her first post
My darling,You don’t know me yet. And neither do I. You have no existence as of now. But still…..I feel this irrepresible urge to talk to you. To tell you of the immense struggle we had to go through to bring you to life. And may be it will be years before you ever read this sweetheart. May be you’ll never read this. May be there will never be a ‘you’. May be.
This is her mothers’ day post and it starts like this…
Tears in Heaven:
I think the hardest part is the not knowing what the future holds. And the waiting. The doing nothing while you wait bit. Now that I know exactly why month after month goes by without me conceiving I feel like there must be some simple way out to fix it. Take a pill, stir in some love and we’ll be good to go. But apparently it isn’t all that simple. And good things come to those who wait. Or so it says on my fortune cookie. So I wait. And hope life doesn’t pass me by.
And there is her donor dilemma…
Daddy says it won’t matter to him and it should be my decision but I know he’s just feeling guilty and blames himself for not being able to provide me with the experience of motherhood. He wants it so bad for me. But I just can’t accept the fact that it will not be him. You’ll be “my baby”, not “our baby”. And that will be hard in the long run. Even if he’s your Daddy from the start.