God of all things
Posted by ksubrama மேல் ஒக்ரோபர் 3, 2007
Tharini, a fellow mommy blogger has been my source of inspiration for so long and this post of hers had a very significant effect on me. She enjoys life, even even her daily chores and sees God everywhere.
And then, I grew up, just a little bit. And I grew older by a few years, and my hold on my faith and its hold on me, lessened, and reached a point which left me in a state of limbo. On the one hand, I was holding on with some desperation to all my childish notions and that once blind belief that God was always there. And on the other hand, my mind drew up a lot of questions, none of which I could find satisfactory answers for, and made it increasingly hard for me to connect with God. I had very little involvement with the seemingly empty, meaningless rituals which required me to stand before an idol everyday and mouth verses in feverish intensity. I felt no love for Him when I did that. In fact, I felt nothing except perhaps performance anxiety. It all happened by rote and made me extremely uncomfortable. I realised how deeply unsatisfied I was and would have probably drifted along in that direction, had He not acted through an instrument of His divine will. My friend. One of my dearest friends.